Full Circle

Full Circle

Tidal turns, my here and now,

It's getting darker,

I've been here before I think,

Just a little further to go...

Clear blue skies will slip around

Disguising storms, both black and true,

This time my castle's built to last

I cannot live through its collapse

There, it's over, sunshine beats down

Upon my reality, burning, buckling, tarnishing,

Blinding light, now searing my sight,

White noise fills my calmed thoughts, negates.

Once settled, now calm again, random doubts

Just drift away, leaving me to play.

Expectation now, transparent, seen past,

I live without, it's my only way.

Every moment spent in fantasy,

Sunny, warm, cosy, happy and gay,

My smile gleams joy in this world,

I have to stay here, it must make sense.

I shall fit the new, slowly

Siphoning off the odd objects, misfits,

Filtering strange and wicked desires

Needs will be overcome.

This land of my creation,

This world of glorious fairytale,

It's virtually real, all there is out there now.

So I go on, and on, innocently, confidently

Blissfully unaware of utter truth

Sidestepping, losing the lies

My shell grows to weaken.

Power is fading, cracks invade my belief,

Teasing, toying, flashing, allowing the rain in.

At first, no more damage than can be patched,

But crack finds crack, gaping holes exposing more,

The flood then starts, prepare for war!

With all that is me, well the me I made,

Defending against knowledge,

Insidiously tracking each new scaffold, I build

Becoming weak, cold, inadequate, bleeding my soul

The Battle now, will soon be done

And from my dreams I will rudely be awoken

My sorry eyes upon ugly truth must rest,

This land of mine tied in confusion,

Rotten, and beyond quick replacement.

How do I find my way out? This is my place!

Was I too clever, hiding the exits from even myself,

Not able to trust in all that I was.

I've burnt my bridges, tampered with signs,

The sunshine coast, now contaminated, overgrown

A jungle cries from deep within the storm,

Hey, I'm not suprised! I've seen this before!

Danger lurking, strangers around every turn,

Fierce creatures, creeping at my naked flesh,

Tearing, laughing, ripping my world apart.

Unconcerned, that I am alone now,

My creation has turned against me! Justice?

"You fool", I hear,

"Look what you've done!"

Yes it's time, to build another one!